The characterization may be outdated, yet it speaks volume of the heart longings that pits dreams versus expectations. What happens when your dreams become reality? Are dreams meant to be reality, or simply to remain dreams.
Stacy was beautiful, sweet, loving and very romantic. She believed in the niciest things in life and trusted for Love to steal her away of her routine life.
I was a cocky young adult, finally coming to terms with my qualities and getting control of my seductive skills. I was confident enough to know the damages I can inflict on the dating scene, yet very much in love in admiring myself at work.
When we met, I was drown unto her because she was all I looked for: Beautiful, inside and out, sweet and gentle outside, but moderately kninky on the inside. She was smart enough to plan a bright future, but naive enough to entertain the romantic fantasies of a little girl.
She was surrounded by a pack of wolves, I wanted to claim the top price; smitten by my macho attitidue, she wanted to teach me Love.
We became a pair where one was living the dream, and the other one was making a statement.
For her, we were suppose to grow in Love, for me, I was suppose to escape falling in Love. She believed she had reached her destination, I concluded that I was officially a bona fide womanizer.
Our conflict of interest broke us apart, but I broke her more than she did me. She fought for me, but it was like giving blood to a vampire. I was already looking for a better, finer prey.
I never really found another woman who truly made me feel like the mighty prince to the rescue. They say beware what you asked for, you might get it. It is today that I wish to sweep a woman off her feet, it is today that I seek a woman who believes in Love, instead of one who is desillusioned by Love.
It was not supposed to be that way I told God, I was suppose to look for years, stumble, have a disappointment, I was not suppose to hit the jackpot right away...
I feel like it was too early; even if I always wanted her, I also wanted to run around and build my reputation, at the end I lost and ruined both.
When you engage God in your life, remember that nothing is to big that you shouldn't expect it, no prayer is too complicated that it cannot be answered, there is no reason to expect a delay or a trial by fire.
Society will tell you that things take time, that you need to roam around before you get the finest things, etc...
For each thing its season and function, but as of God, ask and you shall receive...most importantly, KNOW how to receive.
I hoped for a girl like Stacy, but when I got her, I realized I wasn't ready.
God answers prayers, expect them to come true...or live for years with the sorrow of ignoring God's gift.
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