Swagger

Swagger could be the title of a dope song...
Swagger can also be quite a negative display of character
Swagger may very much define the ultimate level of confidence, a gold mine, say you...

Swagger, to have or not to have, thus is the dilemma; either you have or you don't. You have it, you are a flavor flav wanna be in an harem of stunning beauties, you don't, well you're that guy who reminds everyone of the sexiest man alive, yet you always top the list of eligible bachelors...

Swagger is an asset, a weapon, a tool, a mojo, etc...you name, it's good. Swagger is the VIP card in the dating club...

Swagger it seems has also an expiration date...

I use to have Swagger, a good Swagger too; I'd walk, they'd tremble. When I smiled, their heartbeat sped up, and when I spoke, they simply couldn't stay focus. In my eyes they'd be drawn, and all in itself, my presence was like an hypnosis session.

I had swagger, couldn't have enough women, and they couldn't get enough of me. It was a good life, it was a fun life.

Granted, there were a few lies, broken promises, deception and a certain disdain for commitment, but hey, I had swagger, so all was tolerable, acceptable and even rewarded.

But then I met someone of influence, someone who could help me when I was in need, someone I had to listen to. That person told me to treat others feelings with great care; that person added that it is better to give than receive, to endure than inflict, and to be honest regardless the pain and disappointment it may bring.

"She is first and foremost a creature of God." my friend said. "She is first your sister in christ before your wife and lover." that person added.

So from then, when I approach them, I am honest, sincere in my intentions. When they fall for me and it's not reciprocal, I confess rather than take advantage. When sweet opportunities presents themselves, I back down instead of pouncing like a wild animal.

Since then, when I walk in, they ignore it, when I smile, they frown; when I speak, they pretend to listen. In my eyes they see gentleness, and gentleness is not decisive.

My friend showed me the ways of God, and I accepted it. When I accepted Christianity, my Swagger license was revoked.

I became a Christian, but now I have no swagger, no fun and no life...

They said God gives us confidence, courage and a do it all attitude...yeah for all spiritual things; in this world I need swagger.

Christianity encourage me to have a woman, but to have a woman, I need my earthly swagger. It all looks like an hoax...like I was sold an SUV with a motorcycle insurance.

What gives? I want to ask God, but I am afraid, because when it comes to Swagger, God has the bigger one. So I pray that He'll just show me how to use His...