Christian, Modern or Modern Christian man

There is a moment in every man's romantic quest where success breeds more doubts, a crossroad where he ponders if she savor the victory and enjoy the spoils, or recreate the feeling and expand his kingdom.

I am talking here about that instance where luck, destiny, opportunity, etc...are in the secondary plan, and you have actually succeeding in getting the woman you wanted all the way, even doubting at times that will succeed.

After a arduous labor of courting, dinning and wooing, you have finally broken the hard shell of a woman who you just discovered is nothing else than a sweet, fragile and loving being with all eyes for you. at this precise moment, if it is the first time, most men have 2 reactions:

1. Thank you God, now do not screw up and make her happy...
2. Damn...it worked? I am good...let me see if I can do it again...

When the hunting technique has been solidified and proven, some settle for the sure and secure diet, while others go on a hunting spree to solidify the new status of a predator.

Here I come, not unlike my peers, fully confident in my abilities, yet secretly pondering about all the missed opportunities...what to do...what to do...? the schools of thoughts offer two radical views.

The modern man is all about "scoring", honing your skills and increasing the quality of women you meet while making sure that you still get laid.

The Christian man is more about being patient, stroking this gentle flower on the right side of the petal, making sure that not a stem is bent or broken for an everlasting bliss under the loving and tender eyes of the almighty God.

Then there is us...The Modern Christian man, who longs for this precious dove to whom to be faithful and caring, but who also wants to get laid and being reminded every day that he made the right choice even when the grass looks so much greener on the other side.

Spoiled, difficult, stubborn and immature? maybe, but also honest, dedicated and confident in his expectations. The longing of a Christian man are no different than those of a modern man, while the modern man never stops looking for what the Christian knows exactly where and how to find.

It is exactly like riding a bicycle, before I complained that I had lost my swagger and touch, and prayed to get just one more chance; but now that I am back in the game, it is hard to appreciate that one chance because suddenly, everything works again, the subtle look, the seductive smile, the bold yet complete BS of a conversation...I feel fixed...now I tempted to catch up for lost time and spring my wings again...

But should it be at the expense of a woman who helped me rediscover myself? regain confidence in myself? show me that I can be trustworthy? made herself vulnerable to me?

Is she that disposable? Is this what I was in it for? At the beginning of the quest, all I wanted was to "get my mojo back"...now I thought I had it back, but it feels different.

I remember the words of author Leon Kass, when he said: "For it is a woman’s refusal of sexual importunings, coupled with hints or promises of later gratification, that is generally a necessary condition of transforming a man’s lust into love."

He is right, I have changed, she has changed me, and within that change is the essential transition from modern man, to Modern Christian man to hopefully full Christian man. For the both of us, this can only be promising.