How does one leads to two?

I am now fully persuaded when I stand in front of the mirror, that I am a Christian man; which is also why I often avoid the mirror. When the struggle of conversion have passed, what remains is the pressure to uphold the new belief. The life of a Christian is full of benefits, it doesn't mean that it is a cakewalk. Victory is not promised as a result of peace, but of a daily battle over an enemy set on distracting one from his walk.

This is not a war one wages as a lonesome, lonely and antisocial Hero; this is a fight where Batman, superman, Zorro, Bruce lee, chuck Norris all need to band together and fight as a team.

John Donne (1572-1631) said That "No man is an island", because God first declared that "it is not good for man to be alone" (Genesis 2:18). He (God) also established that "two are better than one."(Ecclesiastes 4:9)

Once you reassert your faith, the void becomes omnipresent and that feeling of perpetual quest to fill it is unbearable. You wonder how you have been able to live without it in the past, only to realize that you've always looked for it, but always at the wrong place and for the wrong reasons.

When you read "He who finds a wife finds a good thing and obtains favor from the LORD" (Proverbs 18:22), you are pleased by the promise, but insecure about the word "find"; because finding involves looking, finding implies searching, finding includes decision...and your experience have showed you that it is a treacherous path of romantic uncertainty, so many have made mistakes that way, mistakes that have led to divorces, unfaithfulness, heartbreaks, insecurity, abuse, loss of identity, etc...you turn to God so you could avoid making the mistakes that are bound because you are not perfect...

You rather rely on the verse that says "In all your ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct your paths"(Proverbs 3:6). This is what you want, for God to direct your path, to lead you to her...

If only it was that easy, if only you could be controlled, hypnotized and guided to her doorsteps; but No, there is such thing as freedom of choice, freedom to search, freedom to decide, freedom to find.

It is not Victory from peace, but victory after effort, sacrifice and commitment; this is what the man in the mirror would say if you took time to talk with him.

So you remember the verse "Trust in the LORD with all your heart; and lean not unto your own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and He shall direct your paths."

You've searched and finally found; was it divine providence or simply luck? you don't know, you do not rely on your own understanding. You just walk with the confidence that He is with you, and the fear that you might be seriously rejected and humiliated.

You tell yourself "I can do it, I can do it...."

Finally, you approach the beautiful woman you've been staring at for the past 2 hours and with all the courage you can muster, you open your mouth and timidly say: "Excuse, miss, my name is...., and I was wondering if..."

Rejection or Not, this is your first Victory in the quest to become two...only problem? it is Victory for the first battle, now the war continues...

If you trust Him, he will definitely direct your steps, if you're unsure like I was, just keep asking, but then be ready for His very clear answer: "I will lead you if you would first MOVE YOUR @$$"...

Didn't feel that good, but it worked...